Cindi - Diagnosed Age 22
You know with lupus you don't really think about DEATH ... you’re too busy dealing with daily PAIN from HELL!!!
You see, it's LUPUS that has CONTROL over my body at all times... AND... in an instant it can reverse a moment of pleasure. There’s no time to think about leaving this world. You’re constantly thinking about survival.
Saying and thinking all the time: now, what did that friend say on Facebook about a large lump on the ankle filled with fluid? Or, think about this ... no one's around you and you feel a pinch—a hard pinch. It HURTS and continues on different spots all over your BODY inside and outside. In all different areas, too BUT... you’re looking for the culprit. You find the spot...the EXACT spot—but it's looks NORMAL... YOU GET IT?? This happens all the TIME... SURVIVAL MODE is always on a LUPIES MIND. NOT DEATH. We are just trying to beat the odds...while living through HELL!!!!